Mary Jane: 1 - Anxiety:0

Having this problem with anxiety for 4 years made me learn how to fight it. My Doctor told me some tricks that I could use, like breathing slow, at first I though that I was just a stupid idea, but it's really not. If you breath slow, just get focus on that, it really works. It's better if you lay down in your bed, in silence, thinking in everything that make you happy today, or yesterday, or any day, that distracts your mind and  the anxiety goes away. If I'm on the street or just some social event, I still do my breathing, it takes more time because it's more difficult to concentrate but with happy thoughts, maybe some water, breath some air, calm, the anxiety goes away. When the situation is more than this, like real strong anxiety, just sit, breath, take some time by yourself or with someone you trust, the worst feeling just takes 10 min, never more than that, it's physically impossible , you know in few minutes it will go away, just breath. When you feel better it's really important that you comeback to the situation that gave you that anxiety, so you know it's okay, you controlled the situation. If you just leave, your mind will associate that situation to bad anxiety. Be strong, take your time, try one, two, three times, doesn't matter, but do it until you got it.

What also help me a lot, is do thing that I love before. Shopping, be with my family and friends, watch a movie, paint my nails... It's different for each one of you, so do what you enjoy, even if sometimes the anxiety makes you feel you're not in the mood, that's a lie, once you do it you'll see how great you feel. 

This are just some tips, but I hope it's useful for you.

Today I thought it would be a bad day, but I was wrong, I survived to this Monday day one.
Dear Spring, I hate rain and wind at the same time, it's like being attacked by all angles,it's not a fair war. Please be good to me and bring the sun and happy colors.

Take each day as it comes *

MaryJane

Monday it's always day one

Hi.
Today it's Monday, it should be a normal day, but on Thursday I'm going to Porto for a few days, looking for a interview for a new job, and for me that's a big step, so Hello Anxiety! It's okay, it's in a low level, but my brain starts to think that if today it's like this, Wednesday night it's gonna be much worse. But I really need this, so no matter what, I'm gonna do it.
I'm really tired of this weather!! It's Spring, I want sun and flowers everywhere! It's so cold outside and tomorrow it's already April, it's enough! The truth is that maybe, just maybe, I'm miss my Spring clothes. I'm a girl, we think like that, and this is the truth.

Take each day as it comes *

MaryJane

Let it be

Back when I was a child, I would never imagine my future "me" like this. I was a very free spirit little girl, spoiled (a lot) but a really good kid. Now, I'm a young woman who learnt (or tried) how to live with anxiety. Since anxiety grabbed me, my life changed. At first I thought I was crazy, I thought I was going to die. I had panic for no reason, scared just to leave the house, public situations made me panic... I decided I need help. A doctor explain to me everything that was going on on my mind and body, and that helped a lot. That was 4 years ago, I'm much better now, but I have a big, BIG war in my hands yet. Some days are good days, some are just more difficult to smile.

My life is about to change. Finished school last year, now I need to get a job, I tried in my town but I probably need to move to a big city. That's a big change for me and my anxiety. I know I need it, but it's so hard to control the new things, that sometimes I just don't wanna change anything anymore. But I can't give up, I need to fight, fight for me, for my life, my freedom from this poison. It's so hard to fight it, but when I do is such a great feeling, pure happiness! 

I decided to make this blog, because when I was real sick, things like this helped me a lot, because I felt someone was feeling the same way, maybe somehow I was not alone. I live in Portugal, but my blog is in English (not perfect, sorry) because I wanna help everyone in the world who needs this, and in Portuguese that was not going to happen so easily. 

This gonna be a very positive place, good energy, good vibe, very feminine sometimes, with fashion and make up, anything that help my day be happier :)

I'm gonna share here my daily experiences, battles with my anxiety, my thoughts about everything, my opinion, help someone who ask me for help or some advice...

Hope this make you feel you're not alone, you're not different, you're just living a experience that definitely gonna make you a better and bigger person.

Take each day as it comes *

MaryJane