Friday, March 27, 2015

So...I made a list

Some things that gives me anxiety:
- Travelling
- Sleeping away from home
- Being sorrounded by strangers
- Feeling locked, kind of claustrophobia
- Going to the hospital, doctor appointment...
- Problems with my family, if people around me are not okay and relaxed, I'm not okay and very anxious
- Going to a bar if I didn't was there before or if I didn't went there in a long time, I need a confort zone everywhere
- Being sick
- Being tired
- Start a new relationship, to me was impossible for 5 years...too scared, too anxious, too emotional. I'm in a relationship now, some days are better, some are harder, some are the worst...you know, it's not easy to be with someone when you're not okay, because when I'm anxious I'm not a nice person lol I'm so cold and distant :/ 
- Fighting with my friends and family, or anyone, fighting stresses me a lot and I only think about that all the time, very stressfull
- Jobs interviews

This are just examples, I'm a very anxious person, little things can affect me, if a client calls, the boss calls, being late, if I don't sleep enough time... That's the problem with anxiety, it's everywhere, and people don't understand how hard it is to live like this. The truth is that sometime I'm very very anxious because i'm afraid of being anxious...yes...that's right...