My sweet anxiety

How crazy it is when you realize you're scared about being scared when there's nothing to be scared of? If you have anxiety disorder like me, you know what am talking about. It's the fear of fear. For me, this kind of experience are so strong and exhaustive, when I know that I'm gonna put myself in that position again I automatically panic. It's hard to learn how to control that. When you do know how to control, there is some days more difficult, and you feel it's starting all over again. Right? Like I said before, I live with this disorder in years, and everyday I learn something new, and I'm grateful of that. I'm stronger and stronger each day. I hate to live with anxiety but it's impossible to live without it, so the best I can do it's learn everyday how to deal it and be happy. I am the way I am, and I love myself today, I really do.

Take each day as it comes *MaryJane


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Please Love, just Love

Today I asked myself, do I think more or feel more? I believe I think more, and that's not how it should be. What we feel it's more real, more pure, maybe more innocent, fragile...When we think everything, we plan everything, we kinda control everything. But when we feel more, we are a free spirit. How free am I? 

Live the way you feel is the right way, not how others tell you, live the way you think it's gonna feel better inside, your believes, the way you see the world, your way, because in the end of the day you live with yourself, your feelings, your self love. Those who judge instead of trying to understand, those who hate, who push you down, those have not more power than you, then shouldn't have. 

Everyday I'm grateful of who I am, what I have and who I have with me. Am different? Yes. Am I difficult to deal with?Yes. But am I worth it to try? Hell yes I am. Like you, and all of you who think you deserve to be alone and not loved, yes you do. You made a mistake? It's okay, tomorrow it's a new day, start again. It's too late? It's never too late to do thing right, tomorrow it's always a new day, forgive, fight, scream, cry, run, do anything that release you and then start again. And again, and again, till you FEEL complete. Anxiety disorder taught me something good, if you are in peace with yourself, you're in peace with the world. It's never too late to find that peace. Try.

Take each day as it comes *MaryJane